WHAT IF TO DAY MIGHT BE MY LAST DAY?

From time to time today is anxious to get thinking again for time comes short to believe it ever. 

One night I went to bed,  my thoughts were on tomorrow's schedule as usually,

 but suddenly I woke up seeing everything changed orientation. 

Grasses were turning yellow as an alternative to green,  Sky was growing plants and ground was emitting sunrays. 

I thought I was dreaming that tomorrow morning I will people all about my dreams and unfortunately all about my dreams was all about real chain of everything which was happening. 

The quick question came to me was "what if today might be my  last day" 

I didn't have any idea of this question but in all possible ways my mind was right to ask me this question, for condition was unfamiliar, strange and hard to manage. 

This was my first time seeing roads empty, all buildings doors closed and all social media talk about one and interchangeable subject. 

I began reflect on how government and local communities are under the duplicate guidelines, how rich and poor have the same weapon to survive. 

 how leaving home, forgetting saniterizer and removing masks will be like committing suicide. 

I recalled how some people's lives depend on daily wage and i felt dumb. 

instantly my heart whispered to me "thats COVID-19" and know this isn't selecting

I recognized the fear of everybody not from my place, my country, Africa, America, Asia and Europe only by from all over the world. 

And my mind asked again "what if today might be my last Day?" 

Day after day cases were leaping fast, hour to hour people were dying regardless of anything but vulnabilities, kids under five years and old people were. At higher risk than others. What do you think about the lives of these or can measure the scare of their families? 

At this time my mind was suggesting not scaring, "that what if you stay at home? Will washing your hands regularly be hard for you? What if you cover your mouth when you're coughing or sneezing? Wouldn't be better if you follow Government's rules? 

I was like wow i can do it. But the same question again was "what if I take all possible measures and still this day could be last day? "

Let me give it my best, if this day was my last day I would pay more and Special attention the final episode of my movie, I would thank each and every ever have been there from the outset of the season the end of it. 

Hhhhhhhh 20 seasons!!  It's quiet hard to remember everything. But should I forget that nobody has eternal life? Should I forget how time was unhelpful dude to hide me that today I will leave all I have striven for? 

I have acted since the first day of my presence on the world, but this is my final episode. I would like to gather all parts I recall from movie to see where I was good or bad actor. 

And honestly I want to apologize for my wrong doings and forgive all actors , producers, directors, editors and sponsor's mistakes. 

Ohhhh... Before tomorrow starts without me, I will leave this message to the world "death never give us space to rearrange everything, to turn wrong done into right, to help helpless or , to be nicer than before. 

But if we get this day as our last we will perform wel to highlight our seasons, to leave clean names  behind and die without JUDGEMENT."

                          Safa Claudia.